Real Housewives of Dallas star RHOD's Brandi Redmond has revealed that she was suicidal after a video of her mocking Asians surfaced online.
"Everybody ask me what Asian I am, because my eyes, they squinty," she says jokingly in the offensive clip, which was filmed in 2017.
On Tuesday's premiere of the new season, Brand opened up about the incident.
"I understand that I hurt people. Honestly, it was stupid and ignorant," she said. "I did it in front of my children and it was horrible. I want to be a good example for my children and I was wrong."
"The reaction of people was to cancel me, that I was a horrible person, a horrible mother," Brandi continued in her confessional. "I went away for treatment because I was suicidal. I had so much guilt and shame that I needed help."
"I was willing to end my life, because I felt like that's what I should do," she added, while crying to her pal. "I'm extremely sorry for my actions and the pain that I caused people. I'm putting that pain back on myself and I'm ashamed."