LeeAnne Locken, the carni-loving star of Real Housewives of Dallas, has reflected on her time on the Bravo show.

“I think I’ve grown,” she said during a panel at BravoCon 2019. “I mean, listen, you watch yourself on television and — just like all of you, you watch me, and you’re like, ‘She know she crazy, right?’ Like yeah, I look at myself, and I’m like ‘Damn, I’m crazy.’”

Fan-favorite LeeAnne is a well-respected name in the charity circles in Dallas, but her bizarre, over the top antics on the show have included her threatening to kill one of her co-stars.

She recently got married on the show, where she was accused of not providing food for her wedding guests.

But she did not let that ruin her big day.

“I didn’t want a traditional, stuffy wedding reception. I wanted a full-on party,” she told PEOPLE.

“I know what Cinderella felt like,” she added “The whole wedding was perfect. It couldn’t have been better. I’m smart enough to know perfection doesn’t exist, but if anything could attain perfection, that was it.”