Love & Hip Hop: New York is back, and last night, Cyn Santana was seen breaking down as she watched footage of Joe Budden's proposal to her, which took place live on stage during his podcast tour.

In a VH1 clip that features star reactions to iconic moments, Cyn breaks down and can be heard telling a producer, "I really wanted my family."

Eventually, she returns to sit in front of the camera.

"It's been a year since this," she said. "That was just a really beautiful moment for me. I'm sad and disappointed and...it's just hard. It's hard when you really want things to work and they're not working on your time or according to your plan. I got faith and hope for days and years and at the end of the day, that's the father of my son. Family is super important to me. It's different now."

Check out the clip below.